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Kru, You Idiot

by Shark Club

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1.
Game Theory 03:46
So many thoughts run through my head. Like should I leave or should I stay in bed. And there's a world outside that I have yet to explore, but I can't muster the courage to walk out my front door. And sometimes, I just don't know what to do. And you're not mad, you're just disappointed with the truth. So is it me? Or is it him? You get to choose. And I'm just tired of feeling bad at things that are entirely not my fault. I guess you lose. I am so sorry. I forgot my mask and my toothbrush. I always seem to forget the littlest things, but those with the most importance. And I see you looking around for an excuse. I mean it's pretty clear to me it must be pretty fucking clear to you. That sometimes, I just don't know what to do. And you're not mad, you're just disappointed with the truth. So is it me? Or is it him? You get to choose. And I'm just tired of feeling bad at things that are entirely not my fault. I guess you lose. And I hope your makeup, it runs down your face. Cause you know I thought you always looked prettier that way. And I have told all my friends that I am over you. And holy shit I think it's starting to become true.
2.
If I had the guts to tell you how I feel, don't jump down my throat and rip my heart out. I don't want to hear the stupid things that your "boyfriend" does, it's just a stupid fling. It's like you want me to feel ashamed, but you're the one to blame for always being sad and letting this happen. If I had the guts to tell you how I feel, don't jump down my throat and rip my heart out. If you won't accept the awful truth, don't expect me to stay and help somehow. I don't know what we even are between the hour long talks and sitting in your car listening to bands that we don't like, but at least for tonight I'll imagine what it must be like to hold you closely. If I had the guts to tell you how I feel, don't jump down my throat and rip my heart out. If you won't accept the awful truth, don't expect me to stay and help somehow. If I had the guts to tell you how I feel, don't jump down my throat and rip my heart out. If you won't accept the awful truth, don't expect me to stay and help somehow.
3.
Harford 03:49
Her friend tells me she is taken with a real shitty boyfriend. How did she know, that is my type? And I have watched her from across the room all night. I bet she hasn't even seen the way I look into her eyes. I am not creepy I swear. I am just madly in love. With the idea of getting something I could never have or never touch. But is that enough to make me forget ever going out tonight? Went out to forget the way I'm thinking about my life. My life it is confusing a bunch of could haves and should have beens. That is the way I have been. But excuse me for thinking a string of a few bad decisions should not have to define you for the rest of your life. Constrain and hold you down, make you sad when I'm around. I am around. I promise you that I will be in town this time. What I am trying to say is... I am not creepy I swear. I am just madly in love. With the idea of getting something I could never have or never touch. But is that enough to make me forget ever going out tonight? Went out to forget the way I'm thinking about my life. There's a bench outside your window where I find myself sitting. And I can look inside your window and watch you sleeping. But you're wide awake. And so am I. If you let me in you won't have to be alone at night. I am not creepy I swear. I am just madly in love. With the idea of getting something I could never have or never touch. But is that enough to make me forget ever going out tonight? Went out to forget the way I'm thinking about my life.
4.
I sat and ate dinner alone tonight. I thought about everything that is not right. Everyone around seems so carefree. When was the last time I was happy? Try to place reason behind this stuff, but I know that could never ever be enough. I can still hear them yelling in my head, but there's other things to worry about instead. I try to stay positive through all of this. I tend to linger on the things that I can't fix. My life is crumbling down like a pile of bricks. I'm rolling with the punches, but I can't take the hits. Why does this always happen to me? There are times where I really do hate myself and I think my life is a living hell. People say that I tend to exaggerate things, but they don't see the problem and the attached strings. I hope this is all just a stupid dream. I can never be what I need. Right now it's too easy to say that everything will be okay. I try to stay positive through all of this. I tend to linger on the things that I can't fix. My life is crumbling down like a pile of bricks. I'm rolling with the punches, but I can't take the hits. Why does this always happen to me? Fuck everything. I swear the one time things go wrong it's all on me, it's all my fault. I sat and ate dinner alone tonight. I thought about everything that is not right. Everyone around seems so carefree. When was the last time I was happy? I try to stay positive through all of this. I tend to linger on the things that I can't fix. My life is crumbling down like a pile of bricks. I'm rolling with the punches, but I can't take the hits. Why does this always happen to me? Fuck everything. I swear the one time things go wrong it's all on me, it's all my fault.
5.
Varsity Boys 02:44
And I'll use my fake id to get into the liquor store to pick up for all my friends. They'll say "Hey Jake, can you get us some more?" I guess tonight is just my night. I feel like the fucking king of this town. Don't try and tell me otherwise. We'll have loose lips on a night like this and I can feel myself regretting every word that I'm about to say. I'll probably let my guard down and then you'll know I'm not the perfect person that I intend to be. Maybe one day, but for tonight I am perfectly, I am perfectly content. And I'm just tryna have good time with my friends, so if the cops try and shut us down we won't let them in.
6.
I would like to apologize to every girl I've ever talked to because looking back now, I feel like I have to. Stare right through myself in the mirror every night. So I can't blame them for thinking it's alright. And I still notice every car on the street that looks like yours. Sentra 2004. Why do I do this to myself? Self-inflicted wounds that harm everyone else. I'm sorry for thinking I fell in love with you. I wish what I know now is something I knew. It feels like my organs weigh a ton ever since you said you've found your "someone". Am I the only one from high school who can't stop thinking about you? And I still notice every time you like my post. Your opinion matters most. Why do I do this to myself? Self-inflicted wounds that harm everyone else. I'm sorry for thinking I fell in love with you. I wish what I know now is something I knew.
7.
Sometimes I wish that I was dead. Just to see who would show up at my funeral. I do not think I'm crazy. At least that's what I'm told. But I've spent the last three hours staring at these white walls and I do not think I'm getting any better. Sometimes I pretend that I am the person that I was three years ago. Well, that guy's long gone and he's never coming back, but that's okay cause I have learned to love myself for who I am not who I was. Not who I was. Cause you're more than just a name. And you're more than just what your father says you are. I know it gets real dark and lonely in this room. So just turn the light on.
8.
Make Me Even 02:55
Whenever I think of you I start to get real nervous. Maybe I'll see you around. I try to cause coincidence on purpose. Maybe I found my one reason to be alive. Make me even. You caught me on a day when I didn't dress nice, my breath smelled bad and I didn't shave, but you still talked to me. I didn't know what to say. Maybe I found my one reason to be alive. Make me even. I'm tired of sitting around and wondering if you think of me. All I'm asking for is one day with you so you could see. Maybe I found my one reason to be alive. Make me even. (I've been odd my whole life) Make me even. I hope I don't come off too weird. This is all I know how to do. But we could have some fun. I'll even make you scrambled eggs, too.
9.
The basement floor is covered in sweat, or beer. And for the first time in awhile I feel better than, I've felt in years. And those are the comments I typically tend to ignore. From the basement steps to the bathroom door. From the basement steps to the bathroom door. From the basement steps to all over the bathroom floor. I'll go crazy on the dance floor, don't really care who's watching. Conversation just for the purpose of moving our mouths. The first thing that comes to mind is, "Tell me all that's on your mind." But shattered glass has the way of showing everything you have hide. And you know I am, sufficiently scared of everything that has to do with you. So set the clocks back we'll have another hour. Let's make this count. Tonight is ours. And the night seems to find a way of ending just as soon as it starts. But the good vibes and good people just couldn't seem to find young lovers hearts. And this conversation will end as soon as it starts. Casanova just can't seem to provide the spark.
10.
The only light left on in your apartment was a damp light from some lamp. A sad excuse for me to get with you. But I passed out way before that point. I guess I can't hold my liquor. And from the way my stomach's feeling I guess I'm even sicker than I thought. All the things that I am not, but will pretend to be. I'm good at being anybody else but me. So watch and learn. This is how you crash and burn, oh crash and burn. Oh no. This scene is getting old, but this room is so new. So I'll sit on the couch all alone. Mood masked by lovers and cheap, cheap booze. These are the nights that you'll remember for the rest of your life, but this hoodie's not keeping me warm at night. This scene is getting old, but this room is so new. So I'll sit on the couch all alone. Mood masked by lovers and cheap, cheap booze. These are the nights that you'll remember for the rest of your life, but this hoodie's not keeping me warm at night.
11.
Kahuna 02:15
"Please tell me we're friends," you've asked at the end of every night all semester. Surfing through your drunk texts wondering what happened, but this kahuna needs less distractions. You deserve an Oscar for the way you acted. I'd say this song's about you, but I won't give you the satisfaction. You left me broken on the curb. Do you think it's what I deserve? The wind filters through my hair as I'm lying there all alone. Constant drama is your paradise. There must be more to life than sacrifice. I'd be lying if I didn't say I missed you. Bet you're on to better things. (Who will help you when I'm not there to wrap around you and say "it's all cool"?)
12.
Civil War 03:41
I saw you texting him on your phone last night. And no one saw you, at least you thought. I understand you don't remember what he took from you, but it is still your fault. It's all on you. What a lier. What a fake. I wish I could have seen your face when he told you he loved you. I should have told you not to go. You're better off just staying home, but he told you he loved you. Well, he's lying. Can you see it? He does this to every girl he's with it's just the way that he stays sane inside his head. Are you impressed? Are you just like everybody else who thinks they know what they are looking for? What a lier. What a fake. I wish I could have seen your face when he told you he loved you. I should have told you not to go. You're better off just staying home, but he told you he loved you. Is he everything you need? Will you go to all his parties? Will you wear his jacket tight? Every night, oh every night?
13.
Rose Gold 03:53
I am suffering from lack of sleep. And I can feel it in my bones. It's gnawing away at everything that I hold dear. Rose gold, is the color you want, but surely enough I can't deliver. At least I tried. Cause when you look at yourself and who you've become and realize that that isn't enough. That's when you know, that's when you know, that's when you... I hate the future it freaks me out, but for right now I'm sitting on this couch. With friends don't make me get up. And after everything I've learned just enjoy the good times. This moment. Your face. Is all. That's on my mind. And it's all I really need. Cause you know sometimes life it gets hard. I'm walking on land, but surely enough I can't breathe. Do you know all the things you do to me? And I can imagine myself growing old and hating everything around me, but that's only because... I hate the future it freaks me out, but for right now I'm sitting on this couch. With friends don't make me get up. And after everything I've learned just enjoy the good times. This moment. Your face. Procrastinate until I die. I'm so sorry I told you lies. I just wanted you to like who I think I am, or thought I was. Let's all act like we got ourselves so figured out. And god forbid you don't know what you want in this whole thing that we call life. I hate the future it freaks me out, but for right now I'm sitting on this couch. With friends don't make me get up. And after everything I've learned just enjoy the good times. This moment. Your face. Is all. That's on my mind. And it's all I really need.

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released January 19, 2016

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Produced By: Russell Cerminaro

Jake Britton: Vocals & Guitar
Russell Cerminaro: Vocals, Guitar, & Drums
Eric Ciparis: Bass

Album Art courtesy of Abdall Ahmed

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